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OOC: The How's My Driving post has given me the idea of adding one of these to each of my character journals. Since I am new to journal RP and am always endeavoring to get better, I'd appreciate constructive criticism (even if it has nothing to do with the character). So feel free to let me know if you think I'm doing something wrong with the character, or if I am making some newb error in the way I make entries or responses.
All comments for this are screened, so feel free to say what you want, email me or aim me at the contact info in the character profile. |
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[Nov. 26th, 2010|07:26 pm] |
Black Friday, and what better way to unwind than with free drinks and dancing, hmm? There aren't any floor shows tonight but the patrons never allow it to remain thus for long and when wine flows like water, along with other drinks of course, inhibitions are loosened. |
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[Oct. 5th, 2010|01:59 pm] |
It seems as though the time is near to go on the warpath again. Abuses are becoming so much more frequent. Just last month there was a girl who had a heart attack during a scene in which she was being electrocuted and suffocated. She was not a willing participant but a girl who had been held and tortured since she was a minor, a girl with quite a below average IQ, someone who could not give consent to these sorts of heavy scenes. Furthermore, she is afraid of and has stated that she dreaded the visits of the men in question who did the torture... and their lawyers are going to attempt to say that some people are into BDSM by choice. This infuriates me.
Those people who are into BDSM by choice are part of a community that has a code of ethics. Consent being the major part of that code. A sixteen year old runaway with a low IQ is not part of that consent, someone who fears and dreads the scenes is NOT part of that consent, someone who is tortured to the point of heart attack is NOT part of that consent.
There are days when I don't want to tap into the community at all, the anger and revulsion of people who practice when they are lumped in with such... criminals is heartrending. I am just glad that knowledge is such these days that no one believes the allegations of these so called professionals to be the truth. |
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[Sep. 1st, 2010|03:17 pm] |
I've heard rumors of a name whispered in NYC once more, a name that should make my heart feel glad, but I know it's not the same and I'm afraid to go back to the city and face that difference. I do not understand these old ones of mist and memory, how they can change from moment to moment and not remember. I knew when he went to the Pit that he would be different when he came back. I don't think I want to see these differences.
It is time to remove the collar, he isn't coming back. He, as he was, no longer exists, like her, and I will weep for them both for so long as I remember them.
Things go well upon the island, there is no real reason for me to stay. I miss my club, though I know that Decadence goes on without me there, it is time to return despite my discomfort. And am I not a masochist? Not of the heart, not of the spirit, if there is such a thing. |
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[Jun. 6th, 2010|01:41 am] |
The island shall have it's grand opening on June 21st, just in time for the solstice. There will be bonfires and dancing, passion and desire, it will be truly magnificent. I cannot wait. My clothing line is to be introduced a month later, in July that the clothing might be prepared for the public in time for fall. I'm looking forward to that as well.
Things have gone well otherwise, though at time I miss New York, my club and ribbons. It is time to come home, at least for a couple of weeks before the grand opening. Everything that can be attended to by myself has been so.
I met a lovely older lady today whilst visiting one of my favorite latex shops on the mainland. She was not into the scene or the culture but she was amazingly openminded. She told me she was buying a latex apron, that way when she wears it to cook in, it won't get stained. It was terribly cute. |
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[May. 9th, 2010|09:26 pm] |
I've only just returned to the city after a trip to the island to begin preparations for this summer's opening event. I do not check the news while I'm there.
There are times I loathe my own people, they will be paying for their misdeeds in more ways than simple sentences. I cannot believe that a judge and jury found the torture and trafficking of a 12 year old girl worth a mere 15 years. This child was abused in this manner for 4 years, and I firmly believe that the maximum of 15 years should be given for every -day- she was forced to endure such things. A proper dominant cares for his submissive, for her well-being, for her health, this man is -not- a proper dominant. A proper mother cares for her child, she does not allow her to be trained in heavy scening which she does not enjoy and cannot consent to and then sold to various men over the internet.
It is good to know that men who rape children do not survive in prison, good to know that women who abuse their children do not survive in prison either. For prison is filled with mothers and fathers that for all of their faults, do love their children.
I think it is time for the city to receive another cleansing. |
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[Apr. 1st, 2010|12:02 pm] |
Things go well, the new island is nearing completion as is my new clothing line. I've worked mostly in silks and in high grade pvc, the effects seem to be quite sensuous. Time spent outside of NYC seems for the best and yet I miss certain aspects of the city, I miss my club, my temple, I miss him still but he is not there and I should cease that silliness.
In further news, I've been corresponding with a most interesting colleague. Like me he has a doctorate in psychology and writes an advice column. He's also extremely intelligent, quick of wit and a sadist. It is extremely refreshing to see someone so open, honest and blunt about his own sexuality willing to help others without judging theirs. I don't always feel he is spot on, but I do respect him endlessly.
I'm returning to NYC on Monday and I feel as though I should have some sort of event soon. Something to awaken the senses. Perhaps a fetish ball or a masque. It has been a while. |
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[Feb. 20th, 2010|07:54 am] |
I cannot even fathom the current climate of the community right now. It seems as though the moment we start getting some acceptance and some tolerance someone goes and does something incredibly stupid and associated with mine. In recent news, a man was sentenced for 9 years in a federal prison for degrading, scarring and branding a woman against her will, and tried to show a slave contract in court to prove that this was all legitimate. Listen, darlings, in a proper bdsm relationship this shit doesn't happen because a real Master does not need to force his slaves into anything. Things being consensual is part of the very premise of the community. In other news, a dominant meets a submissive online, they meet, things are going well and then once he's got her where he wants her he forces her into becoming a prostitute.
I am so sick of bad people preying on those who seek something real from my community. I just feel sick and powerless right now. |
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[Jan. 26th, 2010|09:55 am] |
All stocks in Himeros are being paid out at current market value. The island is going private. There was a shareholder's meeting, the majority holder along with quite a few others voted and it is done. Why? Well, it's quite simple. We were given an ultimatum by a film company that it is too close to a certain island in a certain movie that they hold rights to. Legal counsel says that they do have grounds despite the fact that this was not the intent. The representatives we spoke to will not pursue the matter with this course of action. Those that own land there may of course continue to live on the island and do as you please, according to federal and state laws.
That said, I'm okay with it. It was a roaring success but there are definitely things that I would change now that I know better.
I have the financial backing to open another resort and I will be doing so within the year. There will be some changes there but there will be some similarities as well. I'll be naming this new resort Decadence, after my club and I will not be allowing the purchase of stocks beyond the initial financial backers getting 5% of the shares each, at a total of 15%. I will be maintaining the other 75% as well as full control over the island's management.
In other news, the clothing chain is going well so far, Club Decadence is at an all time high in popularity, and I would really, really like a nap. |
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[Jan. 16th, 2010|11:43 am] |
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[Jan. 12th, 2010|02:27 am] |
It's late, but I still have so much work to do. Decadence closes in half an hour, but they don't really need me there for that. Things are spiraling gloriously upwards. I've been approached by one of the original financial backers for Himeros and there are two things shortly in the works.
One, I've agreed to for love of an old friend. With the success of the private island based around the BDSM community he has begun research on what it would be like to have a private island for the gay and lesbian community. Honestly, the island retreat has its negative points in my eyes. I do not wish to further separate the gay and lesbian community from society as a whole. They are not separate, they are our brothers, our friends, our neighbors, they are us and I hate the idea of people thinking less of them. On the other hand, if it does not offer permanent residences save for those who are employed by the island then it might make an excellent vacation retreat. It will need to be handled with a delicate touch.
Two, I've agreed to begin a fashion line. Oh it will not be the underground lines of the latex fetishist or the well-known appearance of the underground leather and metal bondage restraints. This will be a line for society and daily wear with sensual bdsm undertones that speak to the kink in all of us. I shall enjoy this very, very much but the power surge is already making my skin tingle.
In my personal life, things remain as they ever are. I've been having trouble sleeping, I miss the feel of feathers on my skin. Otherwise there is no cause for complaint, save one.
I have officially decided that my male form is a-sexual and no one is ever, ever allowed to touch my/his john thomas. Ever. The thing is strange enough as it is. Peeing feels disgusting, I don't know how men do it all the time! |
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[Jan. 3rd, 2010|02:25 pm] |
It's interesting seeing another walk on the shores of my island, interesting because I think she perhaps belongs here moreso than I do myself. I feel disconnected and distant from my people since he left. I'm walking a thin line at the moment. I do not know if I can maintain being his and his alone when he is not here, despite the fact I accepted him as master and my very essence is one of constancy and devotion. By maintaining my devotion to him, I live a solitary life, involved with a master who may never return to me. To maintain a connection with my people I cannot be so very solitary.
I miss him.
I miss them.
It feels like being torn in half. |
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[Dec. 26th, 2009|08:35 pm] |
New York has become difficult for me to take of late. Everything holds memories. I'm moving full time to Himeros and will be managing Decadence from afar.
I wish you all well, I will still be reachable via this thing and will still have to come back to NYC for business. |
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[Dec. 18th, 2009|04:31 pm] |
I'm headed out to San Francisco this week. Going to the headquarters of Kink dot com. It should be fun, one of the largest bdsm sets in the nation and where over 17 different bdsm websites are filmed.
The toys alone will be a blast to play with. I suppose there are some good things about being unowned. Although I'd give them all up in a heartbeat. |
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[Nov. 29th, 2009|02:22 pm] |
January 17th is the NYC Rubber Ball! It's only a month and a half away. I'm so excited! I've also been asked to write a BDSM advice column, I'm not certain if I should, honestly, I've been trying very hard not to meddle in other people's lives, affairs, secrets, not to over analyze anyone and yet can I say no if I'm asked to do so? It's a great honor, I've got some serious consideration to do.
If I do it, should I bring back my weekly Ask Fetish? Hmm, I just don't know.
In other news, BDSM sessions are now being looked at as a means of treating PTSD since it has seemed to have worked in treating some soldiers who have sought out these professional fantasy artists on their own. I'm curious about it and I'm curious on what the thoughts of some of the military gods are on the matter. |
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[Nov. 22nd, 2009|12:38 am] |
Whoever is in charge of politics currently. I love you.
A gay dom running for a state representative office in Illinois along with a Dominatrix running for Governor of Nevada makes me giddy in a way that I cannot even begin to explain.
Someone pinch me? |
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[Nov. 20th, 2009|02:09 pm] |
BDSM news today did not make me angry! There are no ranty panties in sight! Instead I gleefully giggled. Eva Longoria has admitted to enjoying bondage and being a submissive! An adult film star, Stormy Daniels is running for Senate in Louisiana (Not really BDSM news but it pleases me anyway), she complains that these so called christian family vaulues senators she's running against are hypocrites, one even being caught up in a prostitution scandal. There's also a dominatrix Leola McConnell who is running for Governor of Nevada!
That's it, I'm holding a Fetish Masque Ball soon. Damnit! |
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[Nov. 17th, 2009|11:32 am] |
It has come to my attention recently that people are fucking stupid. I read an article today written by a person with a doctorate in sociology, a person who 'teaches' this field at a university here in the U.S. This article said that those within the BDSM community who go to Fetish clubs are only there for the socialization and not for the BDSM itself. Pardon me? Why wouldn't one go to a much larger, more prevalent club if all one wanted was socialization? There are dozens of meat markets within a two block radius of Decadence, all of them packed with as many people, that is a huge mark-up on socialization over coming to a BDSM club.
The same article also said that those within the BDSM community's sexual preferences were formed by something in their past. Bullshit. Yes, somewhere there needed to be an introduction, but any type of sexuality there must be an introduction somewhere in someone's past. Further, you do not need to have experienced some sort of trauma for you to become interested in sadomasochism. You don't need to be a bad person or to have been abused, it says nothing about the psychology of the individual so long as it is conducted in a healthy manner and most of the time it is.
The article then went on to state that masochists did not often associate pain with pleasure. Pardon me sir, I believe you misunderstand both the definition and the actuality of precisely what a masochist is. And this misinformed individual is teaching the youth of this country?
People are fucking stupid, and I believe I just might hate the vast majority of them. |
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[Nov. 13th, 2009|09:49 pm] |
Sometimes it's the smallest things that you miss most. It has been a while since I've snuck away from Decadence and curled up to watch Talk Sex with Sue with anyone. I've not seen Rave lately, and he.. is gone. It's one of those nights where I feel, I need, I ache. Where it's a choice between finding someone for a single night, or curling up in my pajamas with far too many pieces of walnut fudge and Sue.
The worst part is, that I've made my own club such a safe haven, and myself so distant that I must go elsewhere to find the pain I crave. If only there were open flights to Himeros. |
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[Nov. 10th, 2009|08:05 pm] |
Usually I try to be the voice of reason, and yet for the past weeks I've begged for change without taking my own advice. If one wants change, one starts with oneself. It makes me somewhat hypocritical not to do so and I try to avoid hypocrisy when possible.
Thus, a change. I have decided to try a male form. To the mortals I am Nim Tanaka, Paine's business partner and I am handling things while she is away in Himeros again. |
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