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OOC: The How's My Driving post has given me the idea of adding one of these to each of my character journals. Since I am new to journal RP and am always endeavoring to get better, I'd appreciate constructive criticism (even if it has nothing to do with the character). So feel free to let me know if you think I'm doing something wrong with the character, or if I am making some newb error in the way I make entries or responses.
All comments for this are screened, so feel free to say what you want, email me or aim me at the contact info in the character profile. |
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[Dec. 18th, 2009|04:31 pm] |
I'm headed out to San Francisco this week. Going to the headquarters of Kink dot com. It should be fun, one of the largest bdsm sets in the nation and where over 17 different bdsm websites are filmed.
The toys alone will be a blast to play with. I suppose there are some good things about being unowned. Although I'd give them all up in a heartbeat. |
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[Nov. 29th, 2009|02:22 pm] |
January 17th is the NYC Rubber Ball! It's only a month and a half away. I'm so excited! I've also been asked to write a BDSM advice column, I'm not certain if I should, honestly, I've been trying very hard not to meddle in other people's lives, affairs, secrets, not to over analyze anyone and yet can I say no if I'm asked to do so? It's a great honor, I've got some serious consideration to do.
If I do it, should I bring back my weekly Ask Fetish? Hmm, I just don't know.
In other news, BDSM sessions are now being looked at as a means of treating PTSD since it has seemed to have worked in treating some soldiers who have sought out these professional fantasy artists on their own. I'm curious about it and I'm curious on what the thoughts of some of the military gods are on the matter. |
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[Nov. 22nd, 2009|12:38 am] |
Whoever is in charge of politics currently. I love you.
A gay dom running for a state representative office in Illinois along with a Dominatrix running for Governor of Nevada makes me giddy in a way that I cannot even begin to explain.
Someone pinch me? |
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[Nov. 20th, 2009|02:09 pm] |
BDSM news today did not make me angry! There are no ranty panties in sight! Instead I gleefully giggled. Eva Longoria has admitted to enjoying bondage and being a submissive! An adult film star, Stormy Daniels is running for Senate in Louisiana (Not really BDSM news but it pleases me anyway), she complains that these so called christian family vaulues senators she's running against are hypocrites, one even being caught up in a prostitution scandal. There's also a dominatrix Leola McConnell who is running for Governor of Nevada!
That's it, I'm holding a Fetish Masque Ball soon. Damnit! |
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[Nov. 17th, 2009|11:32 am] |
It has come to my attention recently that people are fucking stupid. I read an article today written by a person with a doctorate in sociology, a person who 'teaches' this field at a university here in the U.S. This article said that those within the BDSM community who go to Fetish clubs are only there for the socialization and not for the BDSM itself. Pardon me? Why wouldn't one go to a much larger, more prevalent club if all one wanted was socialization? There are dozens of meat markets within a two block radius of Decadence, all of them packed with as many people, that is a huge mark-up on socialization over coming to a BDSM club.
The same article also said that those within the BDSM community's sexual preferences were formed by something in their past. Bullshit. Yes, somewhere there needed to be an introduction, but any type of sexuality there must be an introduction somewhere in someone's past. Further, you do not need to have experienced some sort of trauma for you to become interested in sadomasochism. You don't need to be a bad person or to have been abused, it says nothing about the psychology of the individual so long as it is conducted in a healthy manner and most of the time it is.
The article then went on to state that masochists did not often associate pain with pleasure. Pardon me sir, I believe you misunderstand both the definition and the actuality of precisely what a masochist is. And this misinformed individual is teaching the youth of this country?
People are fucking stupid, and I believe I just might hate the vast majority of them. |
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[Nov. 13th, 2009|09:49 pm] |
Sometimes it's the smallest things that you miss most. It has been a while since I've snuck away from Decadence and curled up to watch Talk Sex with Sue with anyone. I've not seen Rave lately, and he.. is gone. It's one of those nights where I feel, I need, I ache. Where it's a choice between finding someone for a single night, or curling up in my pajamas with far too many pieces of walnut fudge and Sue.
The worst part is, that I've made my own club such a safe haven, and myself so distant that I must go elsewhere to find the pain I crave. If only there were open flights to Himeros. |
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[Nov. 10th, 2009|08:05 pm] |
Usually I try to be the voice of reason, and yet for the past weeks I've begged for change without taking my own advice. If one wants change, one starts with oneself. It makes me somewhat hypocritical not to do so and I try to avoid hypocrisy when possible.
Thus, a change. I have decided to try a male form. To the mortals I am Nim Tanaka, Paine's business partner and I am handling things while she is away in Himeros again. |
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[Oct. 29th, 2009|10:13 pm] |
I know it's the way things are, that when one is recalled one must go. Things are not like they are in my Pantheon for all. Even so, I know that he's not going to come back. I know that despite what I want, perhaps even what he wants, that it is over. I took my collar off tonight. I've never felt so naked, so vulnerable.
Even though I know he had to go, I still wonder, what I did wrong this time. |
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[Oct. 19th, 2009|01:11 pm] |
You know, sometimes my own community just annoys the hell out of me. An adult man giving N02 to teenagers and then having them consent to knife play is not consent. I'm irritated that he'd even think to try to say it is consent and I'm damned glad that he isn't one of mine in this country. Furthermore, I am incensed that professional dominatrices are 'coming out' with tell all books. That's bullshit. If you want to be a professional Dom/me fine, I don't mind that but there's a sort of privacy involved in paying someone for that sort of service and it should be respected. Again, I'm damned glad that it's not in my country.
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I am however happy that they did not find it to be the patient's fault when a doctor was found to be masturbating over her unconscious form simply because she was a dominatrix. Ten years ago that outcome might have been different. |
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[Oct. 8th, 2009|12:39 pm] |
I feel ill in a way I have not since Tobias was here. I cannot explain it, nor is my Master here any longer to replace the sickness with pain. It feels dark, wrong and it hurts so familiarly but I cannot explain it.
I think I'm going to open Decadence tonight and offer free admission to everyone wearing latex or velvet.
You're all invited. except for whoever it is that makes me feel so ill inside. |
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[Oct. 2nd, 2009|08:19 pm] |
I'm back from Himeros. Heh, just waiting for him to actually show up and be like.. what? Anyway, I've returned. As much as I love the place, it's not well inhabited at the moment and I have to come home again far too soon.
The flight home was quiet, and I guess, in a way rather lonely. Either way, it's good to be home. I'm going to go pick up my kitty from Rave's and then head to Decadence for the night. I missed my followers fiercely.
Beloved devoted.
Rave- darling, let me know when I can come by and pick fluffybutt up? |
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[Sep. 25th, 2009|03:16 pm] |
My Master has left the city. I am unsurprised, his job was bound to call him elsewhere eventually.
We will be in Himeros for the next two weeks. If I'm needed you guys have my number/email.
Rave, will you babysit for me again? |
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[Aug. 11th, 2009|02:19 pm] |
I am beginning to believe that I will soon need to move farther away from Decadence to keep from being overwhelmed every night we are open. It is lovely, how many people attend every night, more and more it would seem, and yet that power sparks almost out of control within me and I do not like feeling as though I have no control over it's discharge. Were I not so cautious with how I give back to the community it may not be an issue, but that would not be me.
I've also contemplated moving to Himeros once it opens. It's beautiful there, warm but with enough ocean breeze to keep from being hot or stifling, and where better for me to live than on an island devoted to my worship?
There is little keeping me here, naught save my Master, would that he would join me, it would be a very tempting decision. |
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[Jul. 20th, 2009|01:51 pm] |
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On the way to the airport, I'll be home the 29th. Working vacation on a subtropical island, it's going to be amazing. The plane leaves at four. I feel like I'm forgetting something. My kitten is at the kennel getting spoiled rotten, so it's not that. Ah well. Have a good two weeks, my darlings. |
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[Jul. 14th, 2009|03:05 pm] |
Himeros has completed the initial building phases. Things are going well, the hotel is finished, furnished and decorated. It is much like any other luxury hotel, though the beds are a bit more sturdy and have attachment ports for bits that are placed in the closets. The rest of the buildings are complete but they need my assistance with decoration, furnishings and fantasy. It is time for me to go on that little business trip that I've been putting off.
I shall be leaving Monday and will be gone until July 29th. Still waiting to find out if my Master can get the days off from work to go with me. |
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[Jun. 25th, 2009|12:01 am] |
( Locked from Abaddon )
The creators of Himeros have called again. I have need of going down there sooner than expected. They wish my input on things, directly, rather than simply through online board meetings and images that have been uploaded. I am excited, but so too am I loathe to take even a short absence from here. |
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